Red Robin - yumm?

I am sitting here after a long day at work, listening to the boys play and waiting for hubs to come so we can go to Red Robin. It is part of a school function for my oldest and should be fun. Not the biggest fan of Red Robin to begin with. Still trying to stick to the dieting thing - so far so good. I'm not as strict on myself as I was last year at this time. That is because I am not held accountable like I was for the Biggest Loser competition at work. I am considering WW weigh ins because I did great then too - accountability. Maybe I will start off with a monthly weigh in or something. I need to kick into high gear.

I try and keep this post as honest and true as possible. I am saying this because I've notice that people tend to create this online person of who they would like to be - instead of who they are. Little white lies here or there. It makes me think. Where will that person draw the line between lies and reality? Are they not happy with who they actually are ?

I realized that when I am not happy with who I am it is a direct reflection of something someone has said. Either indirectly, misconstrued or the great and powerfully bluntly to my face. I've decided from now on - I am not going to let those people effect my vision and who I am. I will just feel bad for them and hope they will find happiness inside themselves.

On a brighter note, the JFK Runway 5k is coming up. I am super excited for this race for so many reasons. 1. It is on the runway of JFK airport. With my love of airplanes, it doesn't get better than this. 2. It is a runway, a nice flat runway. I can start a race off pretty strong until I hit "the hill of suck." It complete drains all of my energy and motivation. So a nice flat runway will be a nice treat. 3. I am doing the race with one of my greatest friends. Sure we have had our ups and our WAY downs. But we found our way back to each other. Living with someone and seeing them all the time can unfortunately take its toll on friendships. Not all though. I am so proud of her for doing this race with me. We both want to become healthier versions of ourselves. I hope I am a motivator for her, like friends I have motivated me to get healthier too. :)

Well this has turned into a longer post and the boys are getting fussy. Til next time.

Slacker!!

Here we go again. As easy as it is to blog - I stopped. In fact, I stopped everything - including training for the 5k in less then a month.

Since I last entered - I went and attending the Mrs. Connecticut Pageant. My mom and I had a great time. It was a wonderful girls night out. We successfully picked the winning Mrs. Connecticut (my pick) and the 1st runner-up (Mom's pick). I took a few pics - one with the reigning Mrs. CT and another with the local representative. I definitely knew I wasn't ready to compete last year or in my current state. I am determined to get myself into pageant perfect by October. My birthday is my goal for 30lbs. 6 months - I definitely can do it. I need to change a lot of things and I need to stick with it and NOT get discourage. I will ask for help and really try to have people rally behind me and my goal. I will register for the pageant and pay the $75 fee - I won't back down after that.

I cannot be discouraged by the first 3 months of the year - I have to turn it around in the next 6. I will continue to write - as motivation.

It seems that the less I write is because I am failing. I will not fail - I will succeed.

Is there anybody out there?

Here I am. Night time blogging. Just got in from running. Not only is it 8 degrees, but it feels like -3. Perhaps that is why I had my fastest pace and best distance - cause I just wanted to get it done and come back inside. I honestly felt like I was dragging tonight. My brisk walk felt like I was window shopping on 5th Avenue and my jogging felt more like I was jogging in place. I kept telling myself not to worry about beating the previous records and to just concentrate on getting it done. I have to admit I am very proud right now. 15 minutes beforehand I was laying in bed trying to convince myself that the headache I had was worse than it was and that it was too cold. Darn couch to 5k holds me way to accountable with the log. I like it!!
So the title is - Is anybody out there? - is anyone reading this or is it merely a journal. Well either way I will continue. If you are reading this, hello and thank you. :)m

Blogging from bed

So it seems that when I lay down all these thoughts come to my mind and I tell myself that ooh, this would be a great entry. Morning comes and I sit at my computer and my brain is mush. I remember the topic I wanted to write about, but have no desire to anymore. So here is my first entry from bed.

I was all set to go to my Tuesday Zumba class with my favorite instructor - until my BFF text me that he wasn't there. She takes the class before - body pump. I give her credit. I have taken that class a few times, I am far too aware that I am working out. I like to dance to the music of Zumba and not realize I am working out. Anyway, I decided to stay local and go to the class in town. I dragged one of my oldest son's friend's mom - turned good friend - with me. It was my first class with this instructor. It was fun and I got a work out but I am not in love with his class. It will be a good Thursday class. Still not giving up the longer drive for my Tuesday class. Of course in between on Mon, Wed and Fri I use my Couch to 5k app and run up and down ( and up and down) my block. Tomorrow it is going to be like -100 degrees or 15. I am so not looking forward to it but I WILL be out there.

Well enough ramblings for tonight. Good night.

Take TWO!

Well I am amazing - not only did I not keep up with this site - I didn't enter the Mrs. Connecticut Pageant.

I want to say I was so busy that I just hadn't found the time, but the truth is I haven't found the confidence. As I am writing this, I am even doubting if I will go through with it - EVER. I don't have the perfect teeth, far from the perfect body (thanks kids) and I don't volunteer nearly as much as some of the candidates. So, now I am saying, why would I bother - why even set yourself up to fail.

Yet, here I am - writing in the blog, so something brought me back. I did take a step in the right direction though. My oldest son, Budu, is in Kindergarten. Since we are relatively new to the area (3 years) I thought it would be a great idea to join the HSA (Home and School Association - PTA) Board. I figured this would be a great way to be a part of his schooling and get to know the community. So far so good. I love it. We meet once and month and the other moms are great people.

So, I just re-read my very first post from 11 months ago. Yes, I know, almost a year - horrible. I honestly don't know how people find time to blog. To update some of the key points I wrote about. I am VERY proud to say that in August I did accomplish one goal. I am now a licensed Zumba instructor. It was an amazing day with the amazing Tanya Beardsley. I came home ABSOLUTELY exhausted, but I did it. I also lost a total of 35lbs (down to 169 lbs) with the work Biggest Loser competition and maintaining throughout the summer. I ran a mud 5k in September as well, it was great. For some reason though October - December kicked my butt (back up to 183 lbs). My husband's work schedule made it nearly impossible to get to the gym and sad to say that instead of cooking healthy meals for the kids and I - I turned to the evil ways of fast food.

As of the new year - I am getting back on track. I have signed up for 2 more 5k races. One at JFK Airport - the Runway Run and the other is the Warrior Dash. Very excited. I have started training for the JFK race using the Couch to 5k iPhone App. I start Day 1 of Week 2 tonight. :)