Red Robin - yumm?

I am sitting here after a long day at work, listening to the boys play and waiting for hubs to come so we can go to Red Robin. It is part of a school function for my oldest and should be fun. Not the biggest fan of Red Robin to begin with. Still trying to stick to the dieting thing - so far so good. I'm not as strict on myself as I was last year at this time. That is because I am not held accountable like I was for the Biggest Loser competition at work. I am considering WW weigh ins because I did great then too - accountability. Maybe I will start off with a monthly weigh in or something. I need to kick into high gear.

I try and keep this post as honest and true as possible. I am saying this because I've notice that people tend to create this online person of who they would like to be - instead of who they are. Little white lies here or there. It makes me think. Where will that person draw the line between lies and reality? Are they not happy with who they actually are ?

I realized that when I am not happy with who I am it is a direct reflection of something someone has said. Either indirectly, misconstrued or the great and powerfully bluntly to my face. I've decided from now on - I am not going to let those people effect my vision and who I am. I will just feel bad for them and hope they will find happiness inside themselves.

On a brighter note, the JFK Runway 5k is coming up. I am super excited for this race for so many reasons. 1. It is on the runway of JFK airport. With my love of airplanes, it doesn't get better than this. 2. It is a runway, a nice flat runway. I can start a race off pretty strong until I hit "the hill of suck." It complete drains all of my energy and motivation. So a nice flat runway will be a nice treat. 3. I am doing the race with one of my greatest friends. Sure we have had our ups and our WAY downs. But we found our way back to each other. Living with someone and seeing them all the time can unfortunately take its toll on friendships. Not all though. I am so proud of her for doing this race with me. We both want to become healthier versions of ourselves. I hope I am a motivator for her, like friends I have motivated me to get healthier too. :)

Well this has turned into a longer post and the boys are getting fussy. Til next time.

Slacker!!

Here we go again. As easy as it is to blog - I stopped. In fact, I stopped everything - including training for the 5k in less then a month.

Since I last entered - I went and attending the Mrs. Connecticut Pageant. My mom and I had a great time. It was a wonderful girls night out. We successfully picked the winning Mrs. Connecticut (my pick) and the 1st runner-up (Mom's pick). I took a few pics - one with the reigning Mrs. CT and another with the local representative. I definitely knew I wasn't ready to compete last year or in my current state. I am determined to get myself into pageant perfect by October. My birthday is my goal for 30lbs. 6 months - I definitely can do it. I need to change a lot of things and I need to stick with it and NOT get discourage. I will ask for help and really try to have people rally behind me and my goal. I will register for the pageant and pay the $75 fee - I won't back down after that.

I cannot be discouraged by the first 3 months of the year - I have to turn it around in the next 6. I will continue to write - as motivation.

It seems that the less I write is because I am failing. I will not fail - I will succeed.